孩子氣

我知道我不是小孩子了
不是做錯了事撒撒嬌說聲對不起就會沒事
不是委屈了大聲哭就會有人來給我抱抱
不是生氣鬧情緒就會有人來給糖安慰

可是我的要的就是有一個人肯給我鬧聽我發牢騷 然後在我受委屈不開心的時候給我抱抱
而不是我在說話都不能專心聽 還嫌我煩的人
如果我肯對你說我的心裡話 我是真的很信任很信任你
爲什麽別人都喜歡我的信任拿來糟蹋

我很努力地想證明些什麽 可是我什麽都做不好
總是覺得自己和別人有很大的隔閡 自己想的和別人想的都差太遠
還是我都習慣活在自己的世界里
每次只要去到人多的地方 我就會自動不說話因為我知道沒有人會注意到自己
所以乾脆閉嘴.

要融入別人的世界很難很難 每次我一想要那樣做 就感覺好像迷失了自己
配合別人的生活腳步 好像就變成了別人的傀儡
我只是想過的和別人不一樣 原來那樣是會越來越孤單的


過客一樣的朋友 來來往往
經過一陣子離開一輩子 我越來越怕放真心去對待
離開的打擊每一次都那麼重 很難釋懷

Love life.

Care less, smile more. :)

Don’t rush on anything. When the time is right, it’ll happen.

Farewell.

一如既往一次又一次的失望 就是還不會學乖 
還是期待你會做些什麽 當然結果一樣 什麽也沒有
在乎太久我也會累
最後一次 離開了就永遠不要再回頭 Farewell .

我不是不說心裡話 只是不知道該對誰說該怎麼說出口
總是覺得沒有人會認真聽我說話 覺得別人只會把我的心事當成笑話

Where's happiness?

Sometimes, I felt that happiness really so far away from me.

I've lose it for a long time, please find it back to me. :(

Actually I've almost forget what you look like, but why can you still stay in my heart?

I thought that if we lose contact, you'll care about it. But you're making me disappointed. 

You're happier live without me, so I shouldn't disturb you again.

Don't fall in love with the guy you can live with, fall in love with the guy you can't live without. I thought you're my MR.RIGHT, or maybe I was wrong. When I was in trouble, where are you? You're not the one stay with me. You're too busy to flirt with other girls, am I right? Please don't pretend you're care about me because you're not. Spent your time to flirt with your girlfriendS, no need to waste your time on me.

Someday, you’ll miss me like I missed you. Someday, you’ll need me like I needed you. Someday, you’ll love me but I won’t love you.

Missing someone is the worst feeling ever. This is my karma I need to accept it.

Dude

Live without my phone almost a week. Really suffer huh. Insecure when hang out, it was like going out without bring my purse or IC haha. But these days, i felt more happier and don't know why. Less care about someone and don't know everything happen around you, just live in mine own world and think about all the things for me not you. I think I'm more suitable to be forever alone yay. *sigh* 

If you really care about me, you'll pick up a call or find the ways to talk to me. But you didn't. Since you don't care, why should I keep waiting to you? Don't fall in love too easily, you'll get hurt. I finally understand this sentence after knowing you so well. You're a dude who I shouldn't waste my time on you. I've regret to wish that you'll change for me.

I felt like a bitch and flirt when you talk behind me about the date. Is't wrong to hang out with friends? Why keep talking about it? I don't want to explain it because I don't think this is my fault. 

Why can't feelings just be easy to express. :(
I got many things to talk but don't know how to start it.

18.11.2012

ON DIET MODE  D:

Need a job badly :\ Actually I should say I need CASH not job *tsk tsk tsk*

I want learn basketball because I finally realize I'm really really SHORT! argh :<


Sometimes the only person you can trust is yourself. That's why i didn't like to share my secret with other even though BFF. Every time I tried to trust someone I get hurt from them. The feel was really worst when get hurt again and again so I prefer to be alone then there's no one can hurt me anymore.

Can't use my phone for five day!! It's really suffer :( can't Facebook, can't Insta, can't Tweet, can't Line, can't Whatsapp,can't Talkbox :(:( I don't know what can I do in this holiday now :\ super duper boring! even open laptop also nothing can do all can I do is keep refreshing my FB home and twitter. FML D:

Can't hang out with friend can't do this can't do that Dafuq! How to enjoy my holiday huh? teach me please! Stop insult my friends, who do you think you are? Are you good enough to accuse my friend? Please stop it. You can't see my sorrow, you don't understand me, you don't even know what I really want. I think I need to stay at home day and night without communicate with others so that you can be satisfied. IHY.

All I need is just find someone to listen my trouble, accompany me when I'm down but I realize there's no one stand with me. Really sad right? D:

Things happen for a reason. People change like the seasons. 

Insecure

This is not the first time i being crazy LOL! Delete ALL the older post, I just wanna change. No matter what kind of change, fate or attitude, just change.
Too tired to explain,since you doesn't believe me at all why should i put effort to explain.
All I want is just a simply happiness, is't too difficult? Too insecure to love, too afraid betray.Please don't reveal my past, my pain.
Life goes on, people around us was like passengers, stay for a while but leave forever.
Time flight and I realize how easy to forget someone if i didn't keep replay our memories.