Nightmare

做好夢的時候每次都會情不自禁的被驚醒；但是做惡夢的時候往往會越陷越深的往裡掉無法從夢中出來。

每一次的相遇過後都會有同樣故事情節的夢境，我真的他媽的想擺脫掉。每一次都是在夢裡狠狠地被拋下，然後一個人一直跑不知道是要跑到哪裡去，只知道要逃掉。然後起身的時候，整個就是淚流滿面。我到底是捨不得你的離開，還是不甘心你就這麼瀟灑的走遠，沒有答案。每一次的噩夢過後一整天的心情都是戰戰兢兢的不知道在害怕什麽，是怕夢境成真還是因為它已經成真？

不喜歡被自己不喜歡的人纏著，有些人根本不需要看得太透，心機這麼明顯，我根本不想浪費時間去揭穿。想怎樣就怎樣吧，反正我怎麼樣都不搭理你，你應該就會悶了吧。現實的人類腦袋到底都裝著什麽，爲了攀關係怎樣都行，裝好心裝的太超過就不像了。

虛偽的人也太多了吧，拜託派個誰來消滅掉好嗎

Hatergonnahate

I used to ask people to patronize me, I lose my temper agn and agn to others no matter it's whose fault. My hot temper really persecute my life. I hate being so unreasonable. I've lost many people in life because of my personality, but why I still cant change for it huh?! It's really hurt when knowing your closest friend has left you and seems live better without you. I hate it, yet what can i do for it? It's all my karma. I'm the one who didn't appreciate it before, and now it's too late to say any regrets words, I'm not fit to say it. You're right. I'm such a coward. I cant even take courage to forgive. I used to think that others will done it, it's not my responsibility. I'm so worst.
Now, I'm 17th years old ady. I doesn't like this age at all, it seems like I cant coquetry anymore. Cant ask for sweets anymore. Cant rely on others anymore. Cant act like a child anymore. It's difficult to have change. I used to live in my own world for a very long time. Never think about others, never considerate others, and shout for angry, cry for sad, laugh for happy. It's me, can I not change for it? Continue dependent to the one I trust, continue act like a child without vex.
Emo to the max. Always back in time and recall all the moment you spent wif me. You are the one who always stand by my side no matter how overly I throw my temper to you. And now I've lose everything. 

To be honest, you're the only one i've ever spent this much time and effort on.

Hater gonna hate.

Bugis w/ bitch *chu*

Imma shopaholic. Bugis trip w/ seventeenth bitch today :D
Didn't take any photo for the day this bitch don't wanna take photo wif me. How sad :(
But seen today was a shopping day so we just can't stop for shop! Although nearly bankrupt and even skip my tution class, it's still my day! Love you my bitch! *CHU*
I believe in love in this fake world. Many kind people still exist in every single corner cos im always getting help from them. *shame* ( im not going to elaborate what shame thing i've done today :\)


我討厭自己要不到糖就耍脾氣的那種脾氣，我討厭自己要別人遷就的那種個性，每天早上的起床氣也好討厭，就連原諒都找不到勇氣 。我就是這麼不討喜惹人厭，難怪這麼久了都等不到你的一句愛你。

Exhausted

Exhausted. Form 5's life is really suck. School-tution-homework-work, and cycle every day every week. Can you imagine how boring my life is? FML

I've talk to myself so many time, I cant hate you but your attitude is so annoyed you know?! Idk how to calm myself when I've lost my temper agn and agn. Why you cant think for me just once? Your words were like weapon keep hurt me and you just being so cruel to ignore it. Why can you being so kind and so nice for others but not me? Is't Im not important at all? Fine. I dont want to hate you, really. But if you nvr change your attitude, honest to say, I cant stand for it anymore.

I really getting tired of all the sucks in my life. Why cant just simply let me go? Stressssssssssss Spm please be easy :( I'm worry about my future now, confuse to choose course, universiti and college. But I need to be good in Spm or else everything is just day dream. Stress stress stress! Brace up! Fighting for my 2013! *argh*

Text me please. Talk about how you have been now. IMY

To my friends.

201314 
Sometimes, I was like to back in time when we're still friends. It's best moment for us, I love you but just till the gap of friend never much. I'm alone but it doesn't mean lonely. I still has many friends stay with me. Love life I do appreciate every single friends that exist in my life maybe some are lose contact or already not friend anymore, but anywhere thanks for exist in my life. I know myself very well sometimes even myself also hate about my temper but you guys never leave me because of my temper. I'm not easy to be friend with other when getting older and I don't know why. It's hard to open heart and accept people since know that's always got betrays and lies, so when I begin to accept and begin to trust please don't break it. I'm serious to every single friends, so I cant accept any lies or betrays in any relationship. Well, all I want to say for my friends in this special day is, thank you and I love you guys especialy my megas. You guys have make my life complete and awesome. :D I hope you all can be happy and peace always no more emo yea, love life :D
Mega's you all are so meaningful for me. I love you all very muchie thank you for exist in my life and make my youth so wonderful. Be my sisters forever,BFF.
Sincerely, Raekayeann.

Countdown New Year 2013.

Hey guys happy new year yay. Party again and I just wannna say............
I'm haven't ready for the school reopen yet!!!! *screammmmmm*

But anyway I'm not going to elaborate about my school reopen, I'm going to story about  my countdown party 2013 yayyyyyyy :D

31.12.2012 
Well, because of those people who never know the word''prepare'' ,we're still at home about 9pm and still don't knowing where we going. After calling n calling, finally we've success to go out and fetch by Zihao and the car is quite crowd. There are Changyik, Patrick, Peer, Mocca, me and of course the driver Zihao in the car, we're heading to Library Mount Austin *clubbing agn*  Reached there almost 11pm if I didn't mistaken, and no doubt there is full house ady. We can't even find a place to stand! Can you imagine how crowd it is ? Still wait at there till the party start and only me, bblythe and veecy going to the stage, everyone else is gather at upstair and I don't know what for. Three person is really boring so we only dance for a while. My heels is killing me.
 After a while, they are so kit I don't know why. We've our second round at.......Mamak stall :\ Luckily, Bblythe, me, veecy and vlada only sit for a while and turn back to library for our third round or else we'll definitely regret! There is so high and we keep dance! Our third round is really really high and fun. My two legs are almost break because of my heels but it's worth! We're getting fun till it closed it's about 3am.
 And of course we've our forth round *exhausted*  Having supper at a hawker centre at JJ and I've forgot what it called ady. We have our time at there till 0430am and finally we're going back :@ I thought they want to see the sunrise at there *tsk tsk tsk* 

Here's the photo of the party night 

Didn't take photo with guys :@

bblythe and raeka

Peer and Raeka

Raeka and Sherry

Veecy, Raeka, Bblythe, Vlada and Peer

Peer, Raeka, Mocca, Bblythe and Veecy

Bblythe and Raeka

Happy new year 2013! Happy school reopen!
 New Year New Hope!
I love my countdown party and how about you all ? 
Thank you guys, you're really awesome friends for me and I'm so glad for knowing you all. xoxo

I hope this year everything can be success especially my SPM , no more worried about health and wealth, and no more emo.  :D


p.s. tomorrow will update about my 1.1.2013 so stay tuned yay :D love life.