Hatergonnahate

I used to ask people to patronize me, I lose my temper agn and agn to others no matter it's whose fault. My hot temper really persecute my life. I hate being so unreasonable. I've lost many people in life because of my personality, but why I still cant change for it huh?! It's really hurt when knowing your closest friend has left you and seems live better without you. I hate it, yet what can i do for it? It's all my karma. I'm the one who didn't appreciate it before, and now it's too late to say any regrets words, I'm not fit to say it. You're right. I'm such a coward. I cant even take courage to forgive. I used to think that others will done it, it's not my responsibility. I'm so worst.
Now, I'm 17th years old ady. I doesn't like this age at all, it seems like I cant coquetry anymore. Cant ask for sweets anymore. Cant rely on others anymore. Cant act like a child anymore. It's difficult to have change. I used to live in my own world for a very long time. Never think about others, never considerate others, and shout for angry, cry for sad, laugh for happy. It's me, can I not change for it? Continue dependent to the one I trust, continue act like a child without vex.
Emo to the max. Always back in time and recall all the moment you spent wif me. You are the one who always stand by my side no matter how overly I throw my temper to you. And now I've lose everything. 

To be honest, you're the only one i've ever spent this much time and effort on.

Hater gonna hate.