Hater Lover

患得患失，一下覺什麽都沒了，一下又覺得身邊充滿正能量；那些把我寵得無法無天的親故們可知道 我有多感恩身邊一直有你們
為那個以前不顧一切去等待的自己太失望，到最後只有自己在認真，局外人也都把錯怪在自己身上，我又還能怪誰；委屈通常都無法言傳，只有自己才最瞭解自己的苦
對付那些自我中心的傻逼只能用不理不睬充耳不聞，解釋只是多餘，對的從來就不是我，我認就是了，不必麻煩，浪費精力浪費時間
對於那些喜歡說三道四的長舌鬼，真好奇你們哪來這麼多閑功夫挖別人的私事當做你們八卦的話題；不過真讓你們失望，我沒有這麼善良，把秘密提供給你們當閒話
現在的人做事好像都不怎麼帶腦，真夠煩的，好想就離開什麽也不用管
身邊那些帶給我正能量的，是你們讓我找到每天早上起床的動力，是讓我知道未來還是值得努力一拼的動力來源；雖然常常我還是會低落悲觀的極點，可是只要一見面不快樂就煙消雲散
不習慣在別人面前不開心，兩種極端的個性搏命拉扯著；有時候瘋狂，有時候沉默；哪一個是真正的自己，我還在找
Imma hater who never hate, yet imma lover who never  love.

Unwanted.

Yea, I'm so blessed. I got family love, friends around, laugh loudly in every single day like no touble at all, I love that moments I laugh from heart not just a plastic smile. But still, i'm insecure. When I'm alone I felt lost. Feeling unwanted, not trust by people. That was the worst feel ever. I trust everyone throughout my life, but what did you do for me? You choose to share your secrets with those hello-bye friends rather than share with me. Well, I think I know what position I place in your heart now. I'm not important. That's why people can abandon me so easily without any reason. Hate myself, hate my hot temper, hate saying those words that I not meant for that to hurt people I love so much, hate being unwanted by people I care so much, hate being alone. Hate all these sucks. I pretend that I able to manage all these sucks, but end up I realize I just mess up, and I wish I can run away from reality. Can you please left my mind, I think I gonna crazy one day. Every day I feel like to go back in time and replay all those memories, I miss that shit. D: