Yea, I'm so blessed. I got family love, friends around, laugh loudly in every single day like no touble at all, I love that moments I laugh from heart not just a plastic smile. But still, i'm insecure. When I'm alone I felt lost. Feeling unwanted, not trust by people. That was the worst feel ever. I trust everyone throughout my life, but what did you do for me? You choose to share your secrets with those hello-bye friends rather than share with me. Well, I think I know what position I place in your heart now. I'm not important. That's why people can abandon me so easily without any reason. Hate myself, hate my hot temper, hate saying those words that I not meant for that to hurt people I love so much, hate being unwanted by people I care so much, hate being alone. Hate all these sucks. I pretend that I able to manage all these sucks, but end up I realize I just mess up, and I wish I can run away from reality. Can you please left my mind, I think I gonna crazy one day. Every day I feel like to go back in time and replay all those memories, I miss that shit. D:
No comments:
Post a Comment